I’m a solitary soul and I’ve made peace with that. I’ve always been a lone ranger, especially when it comes to getting things done. Although becoming wife and mother has somewhat changed that, allowing me the chance to truly appreciate the company of close family and friends, I still find myself drifting off at times, in mind, body and soul. Since high school I’ve been branded awkward, different…many adjectives, few truths to them. Be that as it may, I’ve come to accept that I have my own way of thinking and coping that may or may not make sense to anyone. With the new roles I now have in my life, I’ll please people less, and thats ok too. As long as I’m sticking to my truth and being respectful, I can’t compromise on that.
“If they could speak, these parts of
me that say nothing but give everything away,
they would be silenced no more.
Every secret, every trial, every utterance
I’ve tried to conceal and sweep away
would come back to reveal my truth,
so that I may be silent
At last, at last” (Poetry by Janet)