ACCEPTING MYSELF

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I’m a solitary soul and I’ve made peace with that. I’ve always been a lone ranger, especially when it comes to getting things done. Although becoming wife and mother has somewhat changed that, allowing me the chance to truly appreciate the company of close family and friends, I still find myself drifting off at times, in mind, body and soul. Since high school I’ve been branded awkward, different…many adjectives, few truths to them. Be that as it may, I’ve come to accept that I have my own way of thinking and coping that may or may not make sense to anyone. With the new roles I now have in my life, I’ll please people less, and thats ok too. As long as I’m sticking to my truth and being respectful, I can’t compromise on that.

“If they could speak, these parts of
me that say nothing but give everything away,
they would be silenced no more.
Every secret, every trial, every utterance
I’ve tried to conceal and sweep away
would come back to reveal my truth,
so that I may be silent
no more.
At last, at last” (Poetry by Janet)

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37 Discussion to this post

  1. Beatrice Kuyia says:

    Don’t i just love your articles… They are amazing…truth to every last bit… Being different introvert /extrovert can be highly misunderstood… But thats ok as long as we are true to who we are… A great role model and an inspiration to many you are Janet.
    Bless you
    #heaven sent

  2. Angela Change says:

    I have just read all the posts today so inspired. Am a lone ranger too prefer to get things done myself. Looking forward to positive vibes in 2017

    • Janet Mbugua says:

      Thanks a lot Angela! So happy that you’re able to relate to my posts. I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment. Cheers! 🙌🏾❤️

  3. Angela Change says:

    Just read all the posts today. Am a lone ranger too prefer to get things done myself and also looking forward to positive vibes in 2017

  4. Hellen says:

    Wow it’s like reading about self. I am really encouraged to stick to being true to myself. My akward is OK too… Good job and God bless you.

  5. Yvonne says:

    I haven’t had the greatest life…am still trying to get there and this year particularly has been tough..but I read the book of life (Bible and realise that everything in my life is happening according to His plan….have watched my friends get married, have kids,graduate and all I thought was when is my time….this thoughts made me anxious, curious want to close pple out ,ran,hide but God has a plan for me.my time will come..My time is near and so am going to be patient ,waiting ,hoping and having faith.am a loner to and I like tht..

  6. Barbara says:

    Very inspiring.I resonated with every word and every sentence.For a second I thought I was off,and maybe just maybe something is wrong with me.Thank you for reminding me to be true to myself.Keep up the good work!!

  7. Elidah mwangi says:

    Hey janet,I looove your articles big siz.I’m only 19 going through the same .I have people ,family too that calls me names saying I’m different cause I stand on what I truly believe .A times I really get discouraged 😢😢i mean why should people see us ‘lone ranger”as totally different people.but nway we pleasing people less😉.Thanks sooo much for sharing mama huru❤ .you inspire me in so many different ways and I need you write those articles cause I need them.love you.

    • Janet Mbugua says:

      Oh thank you dear Elidah! I can only imagine how discouraged you may feel at times. Does prayer help you? Perhaps you could find time to meditate when you’re on your ‘me-time’? You will become more and more comfortable with yourself as you continue to walk and embrace your journey, supported by the one or two people who believe in you. I wish you nothing but love, happiness and success ❤️ Thank you so much for reasding my post and commenting so honestly. Have a lovely holiday dear 🤗

  8. Terry says:

    You just have no idea how many of us you are inspiring Janet. Keep this up girl…cheers!!

    • Janet Mbugua says:

      Bless you big time, Terry! I can only hope that by sharing my thoughts, someone out there can relate and find some encouragement in the fact that many of us go through moments when we need to reflect and feel better about ourselves. Much love ❤️

  9. Muriithi Fredrick says:

    I trully can relate to your story.
    I was a very introvert person growing up since my opinion was never taken seriously.
    Thank God for marriage partners who bring out a side of you that you never knew.
    Thank God for family.

    Thank you for Sharing Janet

    • Janet Mbugua says:

      I love what you’ve said about partners who bring accept you as you are and bring out the best in you. So true! Thank you for reading and resonating with my post Fred. God bless you and your family abundantly ❤️❤️❤️

  10. Elidah nwangi says:

    Hey janet,I looove your articles big siz.I’m only 19 going through the same .I have people ,family too that calls me names saying I’m different cause I stand on what I truly believe .A times I really get discouraged 😢😢i mean why should people see us ‘lone ranger”as totally different people.but nway we pleasing people less😉.Thanks sooo much for sharing mama guru❤ .you inspire me in so many different ways and I need you write those articles cause I need them.love you.

  11. Mary Kiarie says:

    That’s ok Janet. No apologies required. After all everybody is unique in their own way. That’s God’s design.

  12. Gathunguwambui says:

    ‘If they could speak these parts of me, that says nothing and give everything a way’…..(sighs) wasn’t you speaking my mind? #BoldBeyondBoundaries# that’s what I’m learning a day with your.

  13. WhitneyEmily Wanjiku says:

    You’re such an inspiration to many and to me personally.. Í always go through your posts coz they aré very touching.. Many blessings to you and your family

  14. Gladys mwangi says:

    Janet am super inspired with your blogs life offers more than one can imagine one should be their own cultivator of happiness.

  15. Silva Tutu says:

    And for that reason, I have lean’t that you can never please everyone when you stand alone and sell yourself. But when you’re different, you can last. #NewStrengthsNewThoughts

    Cheers Janet

  16. saadia says:

    ‘i will please people less” wow that’s amazing ,we don’t have to please people anyway am glad your new role of motherhood transformed you .
    keep on inspiring Janet you are heaven sent and your blog is my all time favorite.
    Happy holidays to you and your family.

    • Janet Mbugua says:

      Thank you Saadia! That’s a kind comment. I guess I never realized I was people-pleasing sometimes! And yes motherhood has given me such new found perspective! Please keep reading and commenting on my posts. Blessings to you ❤️

  17. Shellah Grace says:

    Amazing Janet.Thanks for sharing this.I have a similar character and sometimes when people talk about me because of this character,I get discouraged and just wonder so much who i am.But thanks for sharing this.I will learn to accept myself too.God bless

    • Janet Mbugua says:

      God bless you too Shellah! I think I’ve come to realize that if I’m not offending or disrespecting anyone then I’ll be who I am. Accept yourself dear, it takes time but in the end it gives one a lot of peace ❤️ Thanks for reading and commenting on my post

  18. Shelmith ng'ang'a says:

    Aaaaaww!!Janet did you know you such an inspiration!!!
    Sometime I just wake up take my phone and go through your blogs just to get something,to keep my day moving because positive vibes always..
    Much love Mama….
    God bless

  19. Valerie says:

    Hey Janet!I love these article today…good to know that you are a lone ranger too and people never understand how we work and that’s why they give us all sorts of names but its encouraging to learn that despite all that there are people who love and accept us the way we are…you inspire me a lot.happy holidays to your family and loved ones🎄😊😊

    • Janet Mbugua says:

      Oh thank you Valerie! Yes the name calling and assumptions can bog you down at times but when you realize you just enjoy some time to reflect, it doesn’t seem so bad! Happy holidays to you and yours too, fellow lone-ranger 🙌🏾❤️

  20. Joseph Wangombe says:

    Wow I am so Inspired I have a young family and I must say your are my role model. God bless you janet and your family. Merry Christmas

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