THERE MUST BE A NAME FOR IT
I’m lying in bed, bloated, restless. I shouldn’t have nibbled on that plate of fries, then again I shouldn’t have indulged in a lot of things I’ve been eating lately. Emotional eating, they call it. An increase in food intake in response to negative emotions. So where exactly is this stemming from? I feel like I know all too well, but I’m not sure I want to accept it. I just want to skip to the part where I fix it.
What do you call it when you’re elated and grateful to be going through such amazing transitions such as marriage and motherhood, but feeling so overwhelmed you feel thrown off balance? Is there a name for it? When you’re trying to make the work-life balance work but you’re constantly fatigued, stuck in between why-am-I-taking-on-so-much and do-I-need-to-be-doing-more…
How do we begin to gain equilibrium? Or does it never stop? Do we binge on Netflix marathons, night after night, to avoid thinking in circles about our troubles?
The trouble with watching entire seasons of our favourite series’ back to back is that, although it will take our mind off our troubles, it’s passive. Unfortunately, passivity breeds passivity. So…what’s the healthy way?
The problem is that people often think we (those folks who get where I’m coming from here!) are making much ado about nothing, when the chronic fatigue and feeling of guilt or exasperation wipes the poker face off and reveals the truth about the struggle. Yes, it’ll pass. Yes, millions have managed and so will we. Yes, it’s actually normal…I accept this. I get it. I’m in the know. The issue is in the NOW and trying to just move past it.
I’m in this passivity season and so far, prayer, even though I’m not sure I’m doing it right some times, certainly helps. Working out is never a bad thing, I need to get back out there! Talking it out, it does wonders. Documenting it, like I’m doing now. Therapeutic.
I’ll keep exploring. I’ll keep getting better at getting better.
I’d love to know how some of you manage the work-life-balance stress! Comment below. Let’s talk 🙌🏾